Time, Or Lack Thereof
Time has gone very quickly since my last post - so much so that I feel like I've come up short several days, I have no idea where they could have gotten to because surely it couldn't be April already? We had daylight savings to blame for some confusion - but it also was a lovely reminder that James and I have now been married six months - we became husband and wife the night the clocks switched forward last October. We celebrated the milestone with red wine (both the regular kind and in my case, delicious sparkling), a grazing plate and Harry Potter (IV), cuddled up on the couch under a quilt, enjoying the first cool evening of the season.
Time has been playing on my mind, because I always feel like I would like more of it. More time to create, mostly, but also more time to do nothing, like sleep (oh, how I could sleep for days if I got the chance) and time to sit and simply be quiet. I swap many things for time: money, getting paid projects finished, worry, travel, chores. I wish I had the time to achieve many different things to what I do, or maybe in addition to what I do? When I was asked as a kid what super power I'd like, I think I always wanted the ability to pause time, and I know through my years as a student, and now a small-business operator, I still find myself sometimes pondering how great things would be if I could just squeeze a little more out of each hour.
If I had more time I would hunt for second-hand furniture and refinish it with paint and fabric and sparkly handles and put more character into my home. I would learn to sew and knit like the talented line of women I have come from. I would go for walks with James and Oscar and kick at the autumn leaves that are going to start falling soon. I would spend some time looking for better quality shoes that wouldn't hurt my feet quite as much as the cheap ones I've been wearing for too long. I would read a book, a proper book, for the first time in over a year. I would put ideas I've had about creating DIY-projects on this blog into fruition, I would start designing for the sake of designing, I would remember my love of illustration and perhaps begin to draw again. I would bake a sponge cake like I've always wanted to, and enjoy eating whatever results would come from it. I would paint... something. I would learn to take photos with a DSLR. I would go and pick up my Kozyndan prints that have been waiting at the framing shop for almost four months (and whilst I was at it, finally get the glasses I am well overdue for). Somehow, I think that if I start to achieve these things, I will have worked out a way to slow down time enough to get the level of quality out of my days that I know is possible, if only I could make headway on the "everyday stuff" that manages to capture my attention just a little more successfully.
Time has been playing on my mind, because I always feel like I would like more of it. More time to create, mostly, but also more time to do nothing, like sleep (oh, how I could sleep for days if I got the chance) and time to sit and simply be quiet. I swap many things for time: money, getting paid projects finished, worry, travel, chores. I wish I had the time to achieve many different things to what I do, or maybe in addition to what I do? When I was asked as a kid what super power I'd like, I think I always wanted the ability to pause time, and I know through my years as a student, and now a small-business operator, I still find myself sometimes pondering how great things would be if I could just squeeze a little more out of each hour.
If I had more time I would hunt for second-hand furniture and refinish it with paint and fabric and sparkly handles and put more character into my home. I would learn to sew and knit like the talented line of women I have come from. I would go for walks with James and Oscar and kick at the autumn leaves that are going to start falling soon. I would spend some time looking for better quality shoes that wouldn't hurt my feet quite as much as the cheap ones I've been wearing for too long. I would read a book, a proper book, for the first time in over a year. I would put ideas I've had about creating DIY-projects on this blog into fruition, I would start designing for the sake of designing, I would remember my love of illustration and perhaps begin to draw again. I would bake a sponge cake like I've always wanted to, and enjoy eating whatever results would come from it. I would paint... something. I would learn to take photos with a DSLR. I would go and pick up my Kozyndan prints that have been waiting at the framing shop for almost four months (and whilst I was at it, finally get the glasses I am well overdue for). Somehow, I think that if I start to achieve these things, I will have worked out a way to slow down time enough to get the level of quality out of my days that I know is possible, if only I could make headway on the "everyday stuff" that manages to capture my attention just a little more successfully.
